10:33 PM 09/28/2004

Dati pa 'to... napulot ko lang at aking ipinost... :D

10:33 PM 09/28/2004
I'm supposed to be sleeping by now because we'll have numerous of activities tomorrow. I can't sleep. I can't think of anything. I just want to write.
I'm sorry. I hurt you, but I didn't mean it I never really was. I'm in despair. Crying my heart out.. my weak, sad, and painful little heart. I don'tknow why I'm crying. He is gone and you're mad at me. I wanna cry though it makes no sense at all.

What will you choose? To wait in vain for someone you loved and break the heart of the one by your side or love the person beside you and say goodbye to the person you loved even though he comes back for you? The choices suck. Aren't there anything better?

I'm sad. Crying my heart out in the middle of the dark silent night. Tears drips from my eyes. I love but do I really love you? If I do, how can I say so? Just becasue you're there and you're the one I can count on whenever I feel sad? Or I'm just trying to say those things to forget him or just becasue I don't wanna hurt you?

I don't know. Why are we like this? We used to be happy, very very happy. I said I don't wanna lose you, but why did I said that? Why does it feels like I love you but I cant' forget him and still wanted to be him. I can't love to persons at the same time. Let's stop this misery of an insane mind.