wala munang blogs ngayon dahil marami po akong ginagawa at maraming lakad! bye!

Wala akong malagay ngayon...pasensya na. Sa isang araw na lang.

Ang nakasulat sa isang papel na napulot ko sa kwarto ko...

It's friday evening, 7:25 in my clock. The breeze is cold and the rain just keep on pouring down. I have nothing to do and still bored on this day. Suddenly, something popped in my mind. It made me smile then I realized, you came into my mind. I think about yesterday and our conversation for hours. Siguro nagtaka ka bakit ako tumawag kahapon. Alangang oras at araw. Wala lang. Wala lang akong magawa and my last resort is to use the phone, so I called you. You're shocked and puzzled at the same time but you chose to talk to me. It's been a long time since the last time we talked together like that. For me, it's just an ordinary conversasion of a friend and I hope it means the same to you. Ang linya kong "hay nako," you miss it like the others, don't you? Nasabi ko 'to at napangiti ka at sinabi mo na it's been quite a while since you heard that sweet voice. Well, it's nothing. Don't mke deeper meanings of it. I hope that our friendship last 'cause I wanted to help you. I'm just here to help, so see yah!

wish I could have them all!

Its just another day. I woke up around 12:30, hooked on the net, then took my breakfast at 3:30 pm, yeah 3:30 pm. hahaha! breakfast-lunch-and-merienda-in-one! Isn't that great? And if I will continue that lifestyle, I'm sure I will have a stomach ache, isn't that a wonderful idea? hahaha... joke lang... hehe la akong magawa e.

Ayaw gumana ng chikka ko... bad trip! kahapon 'tong blogspot na 'to ngayon naman 'tong chikkang 'to...talaga naman o, lakas mang-asar! grrrr!

Craps

There is one thing I can promis you, I will miss you. And it will be so much that in every smile that I glance when I look at you is a tear that hides behind my eyes. I will weep as I laugh and try to forget the things that will remain forever. There may be some who are trying to bring back the joy in my eyes but it is only you who got the key to open it and bring back to life. I don't fear this moment, the moment of missing you, because I love you and it is enough to confide me. You have my faith even then, and it is still there, growing in my heart for years. I will miss you so much and it is hard to explain why or how or how long will it take. It is difficult to understand but everything comes in a matter of consequences. You taught me everything - to grow, to think, and to be what I am. How can I forget the years in my life that I spent with you? Just tell me how for a relief. And another tear had fallen from my eyes...

Hay salamat at tapos na ang mga araw ng pagdarahop.(lalim ba) hehe... Ayan, makakapag-internet na ko nang matagal na matagal. Yehey! Pero kailangan pa ring gumising ng maaaga..kaya medyo bad trip pa rin. hehe.

Nah.... how can finish all those junkies. I'm tired of it. I wan t something new...but it is neccessary to do it. I hate it.

Naalala ko habang tayo'y naglalaro ng baraha, naalala ko natalo mo ako, naalala ko na ayaw mo ng cakes, naalala ko kung bakit ka nagtataka nang umalis ako imbes na hintayin ka, naalala ko ang mga jokes mong corny, naalala ko nung gabihin ka at nag-aalala ka kung ano na ang nangyari sa mga alagang mong hayop na nakakatamad, naalala ko ang pagpunta mo sa bahay, naalala ko ang iyong pag-aalala, naalala ko ang mga compliments mo, naalala ko kung pano kita pinilit kumain ng cake, naalala ko nung magkasama tayo, naalala ko kung paano ka nakipagsiksikan para lang makadaan ako, naalala ko ang mga sinabi mo, naalala ko ang mga lessons mo, naalala ko ang lahat. Naalala kita...dahil ba bukas wala ka na? Wala lang naalala ko lang ang mga sinabi mo.

I Miss You

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)

I'm busy...

Tired, tired, tired. The way I am everyday after school. Nothing is new except for the rushed project that we finished early this morning. Good thing it was still accepted even though we're a little late. We got late because of that damn traffic.

Anyway, I'm here at home talking to my computer imagining the crowd at the Incubus' concert. Damn coz I miss it. But then it's alright coz I got loads of works to do. I need my time. They just made a wrong timing and I guess it's just their first and they'll go back. I'm not in the mood to booze an energy in a concert. I'm tired and what I really like is a relief. Something calming...something like a beach.

Grabe talaga ang araw na 'to. Nakakapagod! Puro exams, paper works, thesis, at kung anu-ano pang mga bagay na sana naman po ay hindi nila pinagsabay-sabay. Bad trip! Inaantok nako pero maraming kailangang tapusin. Hindi tuloy ako magkapag-computer ng matagal. Bad trip talaga!

Last night, I was reading this article my friend sent me,
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masarap talaga ang feeling ng IN LOVE...

lahat naman tayo naiinlab...

pero marami sa atin ang INFATUATED lang...

both LOVE and INFATUATION are sure to live as up to cloud 9...

pero MAG-KA-I-BA sila...suriin mo ang nararamdaman mo...

ang INFATUATION ay matinding paghanga...

it is an instant desire...

matindi ang iyong pagnanais na makasama ang isang tao...

samantala, ang PAG-IBIG ay tila nag-aalab na pagkakaibigan...

ika nga, it takes root and grows one day at a time...

kusa itong sumisibol...

hindi ito padalos-dalos o pabigla-bigla...

kapag ikaw ay INFATUATED, may feeling ka of insecurity...

hindi ka mapalagay...

oo nga at excited ka ngunit hindi ka totoong masaya...

sometimes, you doubt him/her...

sometimes you always ask but seems to find no answer...

may mga bagay din tungkol sa kanya na gusto mong malaman...

at pag hindi mo ito magustuhan,

like hindi mo pala gusto yung taste of clothes niya,

you'd feel very disappointed...

it might shatter the image you've built about him/her...

LOVE, on the other hand, understands...

it knows that your loved one has imperfections...

ito ang totoong pag-ibig...

binibigyan ka nito ng kalakasan...

you even feel his/her presence kahit na malayo siya...

distance is not a hindrance for your love not to grow...

you're sure he/she is with you in spirit...

of course, you want him/her near...

but near or far,

you know he/she loves you as much as you love him/her...

you can wait for him/her...no matter what...

when you're INFATUATED,

you tend to say that you want to get married as soon as time
possible...

masasabi mo na," I can't afford to lose you!"....

samantala, when you're IN LOVE,

you don't rush into anything...

you're patient...

you don't panic...

you plan your future carefully...

INFATUATION is smart with sexual excitement...

you want constant intimacy with him/her...

samantala, LOVE is a maturation of friendship...

it is always best to be friends first before becoming lovers...

pag INFATUATED ka,

iniisip mo na baka nagiging unfaithful na siya sa'yo...

LOVE is trusting the other person...

you know you can trust him/her...

and by feeling this way,

he/she even becomes more trustworthy...

dahil INFATUATED ka,

maaari kang makagawa ng mga bagay

na maaari mong mapagsisisihan in the end...

but with LOVE, you are sure of your every move...

maginhawa ang iyong pakiramdam...

you function well...

nagiging mas mabuti kang tao pag alam mo

na pag-ibig nga ang iyong nararamdaman...

think about it...

think about the difference between

LOVE and INFATUATION...

you know, GOD is NOT a killjoy in love affairs...

LOVE is HIS idea...

He wants you to enjoy the REAL THING!

but......you have to be WISE!

or else, you might MISS it out...

worse, you'll just break hearts

or find yourself singing,

"sinaktan mo ang puso ko..."

after all, you're not settling for second best, right?
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Napangiti ako sa nabasa dahil alam kong totoo 'to at matagal ko na 'tong
naisip. Mahirap manatili sa loob ng selda ng infatuation. Minsan hindi mo na
alam ang tama, Parang ang mundo ay umiikot lang dito at sa iyo at sa kanya.
Mahirap pigilin ang sarili habang inuudyokan ka ng puso mong mapanlinlang.
Akala mo tama, akala mo pagmamamahal. Masaya ka habang nandito dahil ni
hindi mo naisip kung bakit ka napunta sa loob ng seldang ito. Hindi mo maiisip
kung bakit ganoon ang mga ginagawa mo.Mahirap talaga. Pero sa lahat ng
mahirap ay ito ang pinakamahirap, ang tanggapin na hindi ito love kapag
nagising ka na at lumaya ka na sa katotohanan. Kapag naisip mo na ang lahat
ng iyong ginawa sa puro kasinungalingan. Wala kang paroroonan. Wala kang
hahantungan. Iiyak ka sa mga bagay na sana ay hindi mo na lamang ginawa at
mga bagay na hindi mo alam kung bakit mo iniiyakan. Iiyak ka na lang sa isang
gilid dahil nilinlang mo ang sarili mo. Sinundan mo kasi ang udyok ng puso
mong sinungaling at bulong ng tao. Napayaan mo ang lahat habang nasa selda
ka ng infatuation kung saan walang totoo, totoong pagmamahal.
Pero dadating din ang araw na maiisip mo na hindi pa huli kung ika'y
magbabago at babangong muli. At sana panibagong pagkakataon, mag-isip
ka nang mabuti. pag-aralan mo ang iyong nararamdaman nang hindi ka
ma-broken hearted dahil sa love walang malungkot.

Nakakainis ka. Alam mo ba yon? Malamang hindi kasi kahit bad trip nako hindi pa rin halata dahil napapangiti pa rin ako. bad trip ka talaga! at sa totoo lang ha, masakit pa rin ulo. [-(

Finals na... nakaka kaba. Hay nako...as usual, paper works, review, thesis, at kung anu-ano pa. Nakakapagod talaga. Sana...wala lang... good night.

Admit it or not, I know what you feel towards me. Your jealous. Am I right? haha! What a mess. There's nothing you have to worry about. What's mine is mine and yours is yours, all yours. Poor little you cause you don't know who he really is. Whatever it is, I don't care. I'm minding my own business. I'm happy with my life and nothing has changed with or without you. :(

Some say that in this world, nothing is for sure. Things do come and go whether you expect it or not. Most of the time, things come in unexpected places. Matters happen the way we never expected. Maybe, all we have to do is to expect the unexpected, cause life is full of interesting surprises.

Essential Things - 10:16 pm 1/29/04

the eyes are blind for the mankind
For they cannot see things that are lovely

They said that what is essential,
Is invisible to the eye

They are priceless yet worthy,
Invisible yet powerful.

Just like any other day...

Wala lang. Nothing is new for today. Just like any other ordinary day. I'm so tired when I got home. But there is somethin in the weather. It's so hot these days... sarap mag-beach! hehe...

Matagal-tagal na rin simula nang magsulat akong muli dito, at ngayon heto nanaman ako... nagsusulat ng kung anu-ano.

-ooooo-

Nakakapagod ang bawat araw. Napakaraming kailangang gawin. Mga bagay na kailangang asikasuhin at pagtuunan ng pansin. Pero minsan, naisip ko na maganda ang pagpapakapagod lalo na kung makikita mo ang mga magagandang naidulot ng iyong pagsisikap at ang kasiyahan ng ibang tao.

Nakatambak na sa aking desk ang mga paper works para sa school. Pero sa totoo lang pare, talgang tinatamad akong gawin ito. Hindi ko mahikayat ang sarili ko na simulan ito nang matapos ko na rin. Mahirap talaga kung hindi mo gusto ang mga ginagawa mo. Mahirap magpatuloy...mahirap magpakapagod.

Minsan, pumasok sa isip ko na ano kaya balang araw kung lahat ng kailangan mong gawin ay pwede na lamang pindutin sa isang button? Ngek! malabo mangyari iyon. At kung mangyayari man, hindi na kikilos ang mga tao bilang tao. wala nang dahilan para magtrabaho at magsumikap. Mawawalan ng saysay ang kalakasan ng ating katawan kung hindi natin gagamitin. Hay nako...! talaga naman ang katamaran kapag umatake walang gamot kundi ang ating sarili.